Para tayong galing ng liblib na baryo at naghanap ng mga aswang... hahaha!!!

Please give me everything but signals that are mixed 'cause I can't read your rolling eyes...

-DashboardConfessionals | againIgounnoticed

*You are causing to much confusion. Hell yeah I like you... Are you insensitive or are you just plain busy to notice it? Well anyway, I would still be your clone.

...‘Di mo lang alam
Kahit tayo’y magkaibigan lang
Napapaligaya lang sa tuwing nagkukulitan
Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman
Ako’y nandito lang
Hindi mo lang alam
Matalino ka naman...

...Malas mo
Ikaw ang natipuhan ko
Di mo lang alam
Ako’y iyong nasaktan...

-UpDharmaDown | OO

*You're insensitivity is killing me...

my hearts beating so fast now.. its hard to breath and my eyes are very teary that i cant hide my tears anymore. ive been so sad for almost a month and i dont think he care about this at all. i stopped saying i miss him, because even if i do, nothing happens.. i didnt text him yesterday the whole day, hoping he might text me and ask me how i was.. but 9:00 in the night, i gave up and texted him for i didnt received even one message from him. i dont know how he was. he didnt give a response then. i cant sleep cos im still waiting for his text. but i failed. my hearts been broken when i woke up this morning and i didnt received any message at all. i was even expecting to see him this morning like he did last week. but he was not there. and i really dont know what happened. doesnt he want to see me? or is he that busy to even send me a message? i didnt even know what time he went home last night. they got their salary yesterday.. and maybe the went out after work. im really doubting about that. i hope not. i really wanna cry.. why is he like that? he dont have time for me, and now even a little hi is gone. what does he want to happen??? i cant stand this situation for long. im dying by this sadness.. and in this kind of thougths that i have, i guess nothing will be ok.. everything will be ruined.. and i feel its slowly coming.. one month.. till how many months will i suffer? ='(

where is he.. i really need him now..

hindi na talaga ko mapakali.. =(

You may have noticed that sometimes things have been slightly broken for a short period of time. I'm currently going through, fixing up some old code, so there may be minor disruptions occasionally - but I'm working hard at keeping them to a minimum!

I've added a new mood today: the "reflective" mood! Here's a screenshot of it in action:

Maybe some of you can use it

It seems that I can live without you.

Maybe I'm just used to the feeling..

Now I'm confuse.

Woke up today feeling really tired for some strange reason. I have been such a sleepy head for almost a week now. I keep on falling asleep on my way home. I think I am not getting enough sleep lately. I've been staying up late, surfing the web and chatting. It's been a while since I last posted something here and this is not one of the things that I like posting.

Anyway, while I was breakfast, mom blurted out a really sad news. My cousin, well, my second cousin died while giving birth yesterday morning. She's Abbie, we use to go to the same school (St. Ann Academy now known as St. Mary's Academy in Sta. Ana, manilawhen I was still living here in Makati. We're not really close but of course, she's a relative so I felt really sad. We haven't seen each other for ages and this is not the reunion I expected. The baby in her womb actually died like four days before since the umbilical cord got tangled on the baby's head. I think she never had any idea that it happened. When she had her consultation with her OB, the doctor found out about it and probably told her that she needs to go under the knife as soon as possible because poop is already in her womb and she's got infection already.

Unfortunately, the doctors decided to remove all of her reproductive organs to avoid the infection from spreading but to no avail. She died yesterday morning.

I'll be going to the wake on Saturday with the rest of the clan. It is so unfortunate since she left her struggling family behind and her 8 year old kid. Abbie is just 28 years old.

Rest in peace my dear cousin. Just watch us from above together with your baby and your dad and rest of our relatives who departed already.

tama ba? parang medyo alangan ako sa title ko. minsan kasi tungaks din ako sa salitang tagalog. wala akong minaster na language. anak ng tipakz. anyway, kamusta naman ako this past few days? i realized i stopped blogging since last week. wala kasi akong maisulat. wala sa mood. wala sa ulirat. wala sa sarili. wala sa katinuan. bakit? hindi ko kasi gusto ang ikot ng life ko. ang hirap humanap ng bagay na magpapasaya sayo. sa mga oras na napaka free ng time mo, wala kang matakbuhan kundi ang bahay niyo. i hate staying in our house for long, sapat na sakin ang sunday to stay there. pero pati saturday afternoon ata. its miserable. simula ng mawalan siya sa akin ng oras, parang huminto na rin ang ikot ng araw-araw ko. hindi naman sa dahil wala lang siya, siguro isang reaon yun pero ang sa akin lang sana man lang may makasama ako habang wala siya. ayokong magmukmok. ayoko rin siyang istorbohin. pero hindi ko maiwasang mainis sa tuwing maaga ang labas ko sa opisina. hindi ko naman trip ang mag mall mag isa sa mahabang oras. at ngayon pati inuman ng barkada hindi na ko makapunta. bakit? kasi may pasok siya, at hindi niya ako pinapayagan magpunta magisa doon. hirap ng ganito. minsan i have to sacrifice na mag halfday just to be with him in his rest day, pero siya, hindi ko maayang umabsent sa trabaho niya.. last time pinuntahan ko pa siya sa work niya an hour before siya mag out. i met his workmates. it was fine. pero i dont know why in the sides of my mind, i kept on thinking hanggang kelan kami ganito? hanggang kelan ako gagawa ng paraan makasama siya. hanggang kelan ako magtitiis? once a week is enough, but if im going to be absent for his every rest day (rest day niya kasi my pasok ako lagi.) hindi na fair yun. pero kung hindi naman hindi na rin kami magkikita. or magkakasama ng matagal. even once a week. and that wasnt good. i bet ill always start a fight na pag ganon. and i bet, hindi ako tatagal sa sitwasyon na to. i hope to see him working on this. kasi pag ako nalang ng ako, mapapagod na ko.

hope my friends will be there for me. just to take my attention away from this matter. i dont wanna think about this actually. all i want is to be happy, to be used of not seeing him. to be fine even without him. to stand on my own. i dont wanna miss him anymore. i want to have fun with my friends. but they, also werent available..

and now, im thinking of having a part time. i keep on looking for one. but i cant find even one. i guess, if i cant go out with him, with my friends, i should keep my self busy. i hate thinking about this situation. its really annoying.

im tired of crying every night.

i wanna get used of being alone now.

1.SHORTEST RELATIONSHIP?
- Next question please..
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2.LAST GIFT YOU RECEIVED?
- Padating pa lang..  PSP!
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3.EVER DROPPED UR CELL PHONE?
- Madalas..
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4.THING(S)YOU SPEND LOTS OF MONEY ON?
- For Fun.. hmmpp..
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5.LAST FOOD YOU ATE?
- Kringles..
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6.ONE FAVORITE SONG?
- Drop it like its HOT - Snopp Dogg
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7.WHERE DO YOU LIVE?
- Makati..
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8.LAST WEDDING YOU ATTENDED
- Di ko na matandaan eh..
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9.LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR FRIENDS?
- Etoh mga katabi ko sa trabaho..
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10.WHERE iS YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO EAT WITH FRIENDS?
- Pantry?!
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11.CAN YOU COOK?
- Counted ba instant noodles?
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12.LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
- Tagal nah.. Mga gurls kasi eh!
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13.WHAT DO YOU LIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF
- Eyes?! it hypnotize youuouou.. hehe..
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14.HATE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF?
- Madami..
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15.CAN YOU SING?
- Sing and dance pah..
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16.DO YOU SMOKE?
- Nope..
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17.PANCAKES OR FRENCH TOAST?
- Pancakes tapos madaming syrup..
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18.DO YOU LIKE COFFEE?
- Starbucks dapat..
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19.LAST PERSON WHO SENT YOU A TEXT MESSAGE?
- Officemate..
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20.WHEN WAS THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECEIVED?
- Sa officemate ko din..
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21.CAN YOU PLAY POOL?
- Yup! sapool..
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22.CAN YOU SWIM?
- Naman..
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23.WHERE ARE YOU?
- Sa office.. (Wag kayo maingay)
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24.WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP THIS MORNING?
- 9am..
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25.WHAT ARE YOU DOING THIS WEEKEND?
- Malling.. Nood sine..
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26.ARE YOU SMILING RIGHT NOW?
- Yes
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27.DO YOU MISS SOMEONE RIGHT NOW?
- Lage naman eh..
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28.DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?
- Si Andi-9 lang period..
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29.DO YOU HAVE A SISTER?
- Yup..
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32.IF YOU WERE A COLOR, WHAT WOULD YOU BE?
- Orange, im the shine on the sun..
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33.IF YOU COULD GO ANYWHERE RIGHT NOW, WHERE?
- Sa kama..
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34.FOOD/S YOU'RE CRAVING FOR RIGHT THIS MINUTE?
- Ice cream Sundae..

NAME A PERSON WHOSE NAME STARTS WITH THE LETTER J?
- Junville? Eoww..
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36.WHERE'S THE BEST PLACE TO EAT ICE CREAM?
- Sa workstation.. yung patago!
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37.RADIO STATION YOU FREQUENTLY LISTEN TO?
- 89.9 Magic lang.. sympre nandon si Andi-9 eh..
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38.WHERE DO YOU USUALLY HANG OUT?
- G4..
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41.FAVORITE DAY?
- THUR/FRI - Restday ko!
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42.ARE YOU EASY TO GET ALONG WITH?
- Siguro?! Corny ako eh..
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43.WHAT MOVIE DO YOU WANT TO SEE RIGHT NOW?
- HellBoy II (psp-geeks)..
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44.WHOS BIRTHDAY IS COMING UP?
- Madami eh..
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45.HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
- Kung ilan kaya ni misis.. The more the manyier
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46.WHERE DO YOU USUALLY WATCH MOVIES?
- Depende kay domeng..
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47.NAME ONE PERSON WHICH STARTS WITH THE LETTER M?
- Maria Ana
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48.SONG/S THAT MAKES YOU CRY?
- Wala..
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49.COLOR OF YOUR CELLPHONE'S HOUSING?
- Silver..